英语翻译today‘what's the matter for me?my heart had a great pain

英语翻译
today‘what's the matter for me?my heart had a great pain.i want to find my grandfather.i don't kowm what's wrong with me.he treat me badly.i hate him.tomorrow is his birthday.i hope he can happy.in fact ,i don't like to qurral with him.i am very tired,in my oppiaion
the best chosing is to go away.it is more than one year since we get togrther.but now,we just qurral!
so i want to die..