As a girl i know i have loose the opportunity to pursue some

As a girl i know i have loose the opportunity to pursue something wonderful ,all is over
Now ,nothing is possiable for me ,even though it is easy to get ,it may be a excessive demand.I want to say i really regrete for what i have done,but nothing can be change,Fof a girl,it is a shameful thing,how can i expect someone to accept ,just an complicated thing to be understood.What i am looking forward to?an selfishi and childish girl?you know the situation you are in ,so ,enough