Decision是什么意思hi!it is my Decision that i do not come to Aust

Decision是什么意思
hi!it is my Decision that i do not come to Australia to be with you.it is need to explain that it is mine's idea not she do not let me go.link,we are Impossible,beacuse i only love gril ,i know now.to you,i only have obliged that you help me very much.you are a good man,but i am not suit you.i love her now .i feel so sorry for i hurt you so much.please do me a favor,do not back email again,do not message me ,do not wait me ,forget me ,to find a more better gril that you love